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Originally Posted by AppalachianAxis
All the time. Each and every time, in fact. I am racked by feelings of disgust and guilt, and those are the nicest things I feel. Which sucks really, because I feel compelled to masturbate a lot. This means I am biologically hard-wired to want to do something that I know is going to make me feel absolutely terrible.
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I'm fairly sure I had an anxiety spell after masturbating the other night, but I also feel compelled to do it though I'm not even sure why. The hormones I'm taking are only making it worse, too, testosterone ups your libido which is the opposite of what I want. I'd be happy if I never had to think about sexual anything ever again.
Sex upsets me, touching myself upsets me, and I don't know how to make that stop.