thank you so much! i red some articles about borderline, and i can really relate to this. i was always randomly saying "everyone hates me", because i felt abandoned. and then in relationships i was blaming them for no reason because i felt bad and threatned them with breaking up and cutting myself. always when i was in love
i loved to say "you know me the best" and stuff. and i always feared losing them and clinged on to them. people were so scared about how manipulative i was.. i always have nightmares about surviving. and when i was a little child, i screamed and cried about nothing and refused to admit that i was wrong. i dont know, maybe i was just spoiled, people have called me like that many times.. but one question: i red that some borderlnes only used love for surviving, but can borderlines actually "love"? and how is it like? is it like this? because i feel so heartless and empty..