I keep trying, even when all seems lost, simply because I can't stand defeat! I won't let ANYTHING get these best of me for long. I was abused by two husbands, and now I've developed the attitude that I WILL NOT play the role of the victim ever again! I guess that's what gives me the strength to keep fighting against all odds.
I hope you will continue to fight too! And I hope this passes from you soon! Sending you strength and encouragement!