Thank you all. Echoes, you are so kind, yes I understand that it is a continuum, but I don't feel it; right now I feel more discontinued! I may take you up on your letter suggestion, in my journal, because clearly I have more stuff to get out.

Perna, the image of the rock forming over time lends a sense of timelessness to this topic, which I suppose we should have, but again I am just not feeling it right at this moment...I am more feeling stuck in the calcification stage of the process.

Pink, thank you. Does it really help when you zero in on things? I think that maybe some airing out of feelings is due here. I'm not as brave as you are though and it will be a difficult thing with me hestatingly spitting out words with huge pauses in their midst.

I think that there is a connection between my wanting to quit and weekends when my husband is home. I woke up really grouchy and anxious but after a while we were sitting together in the kitchen and laughing and sharing and for a brief moment I felt normal again for a minute only to remember that life has changed. Somehow in my twisted sense of logic I decide that therapy is the problem and if i quit life could be normal once again. Great big sigh.............hmmmmm