hi londongirl
it must be very scary to have so much of your happiness contingent on other people. i hope your therapist is working on this with you. i think the world is a big scary place to and that is why i trust nobody but myself. do they have a codependents anonymous there? welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome