(((peaches100))),
I am sorry to hear you have been struggling so much, but this is not your fault, and you should not be "sorry" when you struggle and need help. Often just trying to manage by one's self can in itself be a trigger because that is typically what took place in one's history too. I have that challenge myself tbh, and I have noticed this with others too.
PTSD is in itself a very lonely challenge, and unfortunately the one thing someone trying to "heal" needs is "lots of comfort and caring" too. I was actually talking about that with my T in my session this week too. For myself, the more I heal and understand it, along with my own history, and with listening to others who also struggle, is seeing how that geninue need goes unmet by one's family and friends and even therapists. When someone struggles with PTSD, especially what is called "complex PTSD" their most vulnerable "self" is a big part of "the now challenge" that they often feel so much guilt and confusion about.
There is nothing wrong with needing to go slow either. PTSD presents a person with a challenge where they feel like they are basically running a marathon and they simply "can't" rush anything and often just want to feel a "calm" and learn how to maintain that "calm". Believe me, anyone who is challenged this way first hand can totally understand what you are trying to say here.
I hope you will come here for more support when you need it. You deserve to heal and however long that takes, it takes, we all heal at our own rate.
I think that it's great that you have gained in managing it better, good for you. If you have been struggling again, slow down and work through it at a pace you "can" work through it.
Maybe you can share here what might be behind this recent challenge that you are dealing with that might be triggering some symptoms again. That can happen, but if you think back, you have managed to work through these things when they come up too. You can work through this too, at a pace that "you" can.
(((Caring Hugs)))
OE
Last edited by Open Eyes; Oct 15, 2014 at 03:56 PM.
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