thanks withit.. I guess i don't feel any hope of feeling good again. I just sent an email to my old p-doc asking to schedule an appointment though. I know I have really bad depression right now. Its just difficult b/c I also alsked to terminate therapy so me and my T are in a wierd place. I don't want to bring this up b/c I don't want her to avoid terminating me because shes afriad im suicidal.