Thanks. i think you all are right, its all fantasy and we dont really know each other, but it feels like we do, you know?

The thing is, the closest i've ever been to feeling in love, it was with him. he says he loves me and accepts all of me, as i am. i cant say this of any other guy i've ever met. i dont think i am lovable, but he makes me feel loved. even if in a incostant way. so at times, it all feels real to me.

he may not be reliable, but in a way he's been part of my life for 13 years. he learned my language, i learned a bit his.... i still listen to "his" songs... and i guess this will sound crazy too, but all along, he had girlfriends (i guess) and i had a couple of boyfriends (that i didnt love), but still we played this "game".

i guess i never realized how seriously he took the whole thing. i used to think about it as a dream... i used to tell him so, that it was just a dream but during this last year i let myself get caught in this dream and by his fantasies... it felt good.

anyway, i told him we need to talk, really talk. i feel i owe at least this to him and to myself too. when we'll talk, i'll try to stay grounded to reality.

any suggestion on what we should talk about and clarify?