yeah, I guess.
I don't mean forever and without exception. but I don't want this to be out of control. so stop for now and until I am doing better and see how it goes. and talk to my T about it etc.

for me it's a social issue. I drink when I am with people. never at home. it doesn't come to my mind.
I am so afraid to loose touch with people when I stop. but I am also so sick of it. this will be quite a challenge...
I did that before for some time in summer. but I was so depressed at that time I wouldn't even meet people. so I didn't notice mostly.