Sry if I made you guys upset or think I meant any of you guys specifically.

I meant that there are ppl in my life who know my "issues" and say that they will be there, but now that I'm doing terribly ... They are not.

Not at all.

I'm sorry if I upset anyone. I didn't mean to do that. I'm just upset myself.

esther ... I have a hard time talking. A lot of times I can't talk at the time someone will ask me even.

I think when you have ppl who care about you ... who truly are your friends ... if they see you kinda are all of a sudden isolating yourself or withdrawing from them...they would make effort to just ask how you're doing ... maybe general conversation?

Not everyone can always handle getting into heavy conversations and be supportive...and I don't really look for it cuz I'm not too comfortable. I look more for just conversation to just try to distract myself and feel better ... hopefully.

I know it's my responsibilty for myself...not anyone else's.

Sorry I'm rambling.