I know exactly what you mean about every day being the same - drop off kids, work, pick up kids, wash, rinse, repeat... I feel like I've lost myself in parenthood and the meaningless daily routine. It's where I'm needed I guess, but sometimes that doesn't mean it feels very fulfilling. Everything is emotionally draining. I hope you find some good escapes, like getting out for a movie (I go by myself sometimes and LOVE it), hanging out at the library by yourself, going out with a friend, or just something that makes you feel more peaceful. Anything. Easier said than done when you feel depressed and crappy, but I hope you find some way to escape and get some relief. Feeling your pain here.