I have two questions:

(1) Does anybody know what type of psychosis I had? It seemed different than normal. That is one reason why I question if I had a mental illness.

(2) Does anybody else have trouble discounting their hallucinations as mental illness? Maybe it's hard for me because it was so mild by comparison to most of you.

Apparently in 2009 I had psychosis for a week or two that was similar IMO to paranoid schizophrenia. It went away gradually without medication. Compared to most people here I'm sure that was very very mild.

After that two week period is where it really got troubling. Every month or two it would seem like I had a religious experience (seeing people that nobody else saw, etc.). I was super religious and dreamed of joining a monastery. I gave away most of my savings. Gradually I started realizing that nothing made sense, and I quit going to church.

So now I'm mostly fine but those memories upset me. Sometimes I wonder if some of what I experienced was real somehow. When I think too much I start getting anxiety and depression, because I don't have a satisfying explanation. I tell myself it was all psychosis, but I don't believe that deep down.

Anybody know what I'm talking about?