Going gives me anxiety. I have refrained from self injury this week... mostly. After our appointment on Monday I was very close to killing myself, but I really didn't want to die. So then I just wanted to hurt myself very badly. But I refrained. Except as I was trying to fall asleep I had to pinch the hell out of myself. With my fingernails. As hard as I could on my shoulder that always hurts anyway (car accident).

But since then I haven't hurt myself. I almost did in the car, but refrained. (I get really upset and hurt myself when I'm commuting, on a semi-regular basis.) So I was just chomping down hard on my hair instead. And trying to distract myself.

Anyway, no. Going makes me anxious.