I realize we are ALL different, but I am trying to learn more about myself and my rapid cycling. To do so...I was hoping to get some insight from other rapid cyclers.

When you have periods of cycling (mine tends to be like a week or two of just chaos)....are you confused most of the time? I get lost in what I am feeling and stay so confused and dazed most of the time. Its hard to use coping skills because I can't even get my thoughts straight enough to think clearly about things. I am impulsive and self-harm often during cycles too.

After and even during...does everything seem hazy about how you've felt? Even though I go through it I still find myself scratching my head on how I felt 2 days before. Once its all over it seems like ancient past and even unreal.

Like it almost never happened. Then a few days later...your mind is finally clear and its like you can think again.

I cant be alone in this.