You are not alone. I too feel confused often during my episodes. It can be a crazy rollercoaster that you cannot get off of. Then suddenly it stops. It can be really hard to deal with. My rapid cycling episodes can go for over a month. Sometimes I suddenly switch into mania or depression or mixed stated, like I feel it coming on in minutes. It is a weird and unsettling experience. I hate the unpredictability of it all. Makes me uneasy.