I "upturned" everyone's life when I finally said something about what was going on. I don't give a fuxk, they all ruined my life up to that point. My story is foul. My abuser paid for me. And my parents were on drugs somewhere else. I was in custody with my delusional grandmother. She exchanged me for money to her husband and just played stupid for years. Then when I told her what was going on, I was called a liar and got thrown out. Then went through the foster system, which destroyed my life again. .....so fuxk it if you have to "upturn" people's life. This is YOUR sanity. Not theirs. I am not 100%, but I am totally over all that sexual abuse and am no longer triggered during or after sex. Anyway.... hope you are able to work through the healing process. Mine was rough, hang in there.

ps. My abuser still thinks we had a consentional relationship. I don't see his logic as I was 2 years old when it began.... but that's his issue now. Not mine anymore. Anyway, he never admitted anything to me really, or anyone else. He never did time in jail for his crimes and is currently living off a large lottery winning while I sit around collecting goverment checks, eating ramen noodles and renting an apartment. It's funny how life works out....