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Old Oct 15, 2014, 11:18 PM
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You are not alone. I too feel confused often during my episodes. It can be a crazy rollercoaster that you cannot get off of. Then suddenly it stops. It can be really hard to deal with. My rapid cycling episodes can go for over a month. Sometimes I suddenly switch into mania or depression or mixed stated, like I feel it coming on in minutes. It is a weird and unsettling experience. I hate the unpredictability of it all. Makes me uneasy.
In a week I can experience all sorts of chaos. A while back...I experience A LOT in one day! My pdoc looked at my mood tracking app this week and said it looks like Ive been cycling "very rapidly." Then she suggested we meet weekly through the end of the year.

So glad someone understands the confusion. Its like you know you're not well but...even the next day you cant explain the day before! My bipolar has changed the last few years. I have never had so much cycling and crisis until the last years. My pdoc is excited when I go a whole month with no suicidal thoughts and if I go two week with no cycling. A week or more of a rollercoaster of chaos and emotion...you don't know how you feel until you snap or cry....