Hello, Since my last post my moods have shifted to a more reasonable level..not great but I'm hopping I'll get back to an "acceptable stable" mood soon. To answer some questions, for once I think I have a great PDOC. she has been following me for about a year and a half. I had my appointment today for follow up. We talked about medications, she asked lots of questions and I admitted some things that where on my mind about treatment. So we agreed that so far since late september the "hypomania" as stop..no more antidepressants. the divalproex level in my blood work is good...but I should be taking the seroquel that I'm to stubborn to take because it always makes me feel like a dummy. Also it's sometimes hard for me to have the exact words that best describe my up and down..and I forget..i write bits of stuff in one place and some in other places...well anyways..for the past two days I'm more stable in my so so sadness and neutral...I still don't eat too much because I just don't feel like it..but I'm sleeping and talking and I'm functioning. SO she thinks my mood should get better within a week but if not that I must call her and I do have another appointment in two weeks. Thank you everybody for all the answers you gave me. ps: I've tried so many different combinations with other doctors who had given me other "diagnosis" that I'm afraid to try medication because sometimes they make things worst and than I'm sick longer and longer and this time I don't want to be in a sick mood I'm fed up of putting my life on hold. goodnight