I don't know how to show people that things are not okay. I try and describe in detail what's going on or how I'm feeling. People respond with "ah, that sucks man I hope it gets better" and that just makes me want to tear their heads off. I curse Bambi for the "nothing nice to say" line. That's not always true.

I tried talking to my parents about possibly going to a hospital, as the previous night(before the discussion with them) I was very done with life and came close. My Dad tried to change the subject and eventually left when he was unsuccessful and my Mom just got a worried expression and didn't dwell on it or say anything.

I feel like I need to walk around with a huge sign that says "I NEED SOME HELP AND SUPPORT HERE".

I'm not able to get into therapy for a few months. I feel like if I went to a hospital, people would just be glad I was out of their hair and it wouldn't change once I got back and it would be worse.

Do I need to scream at people? I try really hard to keep normal and smile and laugh for my family and friends. They know I have BPD but I do my best to act normal for their sake. But my grasp on control is practically gone and I feel any time I have a minor episode, they freak out so god forbid something actually makes me freak out.

Anyone else have a similar situation and have dealt with it before?