Yes! 100%! I hear you. Ive been so depressed in the last month. How do i explain this to people without feeling like a baby or a drama queen. Its so hard to speak out and when i do i feel like im not believed. I made a very serious attemt to end my misery last month, i really dont know how it didnt work as i went to extreme lenghts. It took me a week to pluck the couage to tell my support worker, they way she reacted was like i told her i had a cold. She booked an appointment to see me but didnt turn up or even phone me to cancel or to see if i was ok.
A week after that my mum rang me to tell me that my sister was pissed off with me because she thinks i am now the favourate daughter. I felt so upset and angry i blurted out what i tried to do.
My mum was supportve and called the mental health team.
They gave me an appiontnent to talk to the most uncaring man i have ever met in my life. It was so hard to tell him what was going on but i mannaged expecting him to offer me some kind of support or help, instead he completely patronised me and said " i bet you feel much better now you spoke to me" Are you ****ing serious ive had better convrrsation talking to my self.
It makes me not want to open up. No one cares especially when it comes to bpd.
If we did scream, which mw believe me i feel like doing the would write bad things about us and are bpd. I swear they dont want to help us if we have bpd.