I'm back home for a few days.......this surgery seemed to take alot out of me both physically and mentally. The doctors took me off my Celexa and Xanax to adjust heart meds, bp and make everything work with this implanted device in my back. I'm not sure they realize what a bad thing that is for me but they weren't as concerned about my mental health as much as the surgical aspect and getting it in and the settings right (2 calls a day still for programming is a pain but technology is amazing that they can do it remotely) and keeping my heart rate and bp in the fair-good range.
They just don't get it but maybe wednesday when I go back to Kansas City they will decide that I can get back on my most important meds.

Thanks to everybody for your thoughts, prayers and good wishes, it means alot to me to know you guys are here for me. I have not heard one word from anyone in my family, no one called, no one was there and still almost a week after surgery they don't know if I'm dead or alive and apparently don't care so.......I am now just whining and I don't mean to, just thank you all for caring and keeping me in your prayers.


Lori