I cannot seem to get myself to go out of the house. I'm already moderately depressed and this is making it worse. I have things that have got to get done and I can't get myself to do them. Feels awful. I feel completely drained and I haven't done anything. Guess I gotta just hold on until it passes. All I do is drink coffee and smoke cigarettes. Can't even get myself to take a shower. This is not good. Psychiatist says bipolar symptoms will not go away completely with meds and that I just have to manage it (the highs and lows). I hate it.