I hope your plan is to live. Ride this wave out & you can do it.

I know when I'm really bad I have this overwhelming feeling of calmness. I don't worry anymore about details. I've already made the decision. I also, personally have a bunch of triggers that just click into place & my brain just snaps.
I try to reach out to T, but that's hard bec I feel like I'm asking her to intervene & her only option is to hospitalize me. But part of me puts that decision in her hands knowing she will help me in any way that she can.
Tell your T & maybe you can talk thru your feelings about it. Especially the "why" questions.
Peace!

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