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Originally Posted by thepterodactyl
I find that my upswings are pretty obvious, but depression is different. I feel like I get sort of down in general but can still function (albeit not quite as well), can still laugh and make jokes, get up and do stuff etc. (sometimes I think I'm even okay for a little bit...though it always feels fleeting), but then during these times there will be hours or days when it gets really really bad, and not for any identifiable reason. The whole period can last months and during this time I have much less energy, motivation, interest, but it's all sort of a haze...in contrast to the clarity and energy I feel when hypomanic.
are your depressions like this, or more defined? Does this even count as depression?
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YES! I am in a depression now and the severity comes and goes. This morning I was crying, at lunch with my family I was fine, and now I am just down and tired and physically feeling yucky. I will have breakdown moments but those are less than an hour. My hypo is usually just irritability or I can tell I am in that mind state when I crave going out and doing fun, but reckless, things.
I am always able to function no matter what my mood is. That is a blessing and a curse. I may not be as quick with it, but everything in my life still gets taken care of- which is why to others it never looks like I am depressed.