Sorry to hear you're blaming yourself. I recently figured out my dad was BP and his father was bp. Both dead now. Father killed self after having a health complication and felt he did not want to be reliant on anyone else or alone. Grandfather killed self by not eating. I think your son is lucky to have a strong mother who will be there for him. I cannot blame anything on anyone. It is what it is. One older brother dx schizophrenia, another bp, and my sorry butt bp. We all work and manage the best we can. Glad you're there for him!