Depression hurts so much. I have been there, where I just wanted to end it because I couldn't take it anymore. Getting thru the real bad feelings focusing on a minute at a time, an hour at a time, a day at a time, that does help me.

When I felt really suicidal, I would stop and think of reasons to stay here. I would think, who would suffer if I took myself out? Then I would think of the things and people I feel the need to stay here for. That did help for me.

Take care and stay safe.