((Skywhite)),

I am so sorry to hear all this, a person struggling with PTSD/complex PTSD should get whatever help they need because one can learn to manage it better. I can't blame you for needing your T and becoming very stressed/panicked not having that helpful support. Are there any support groups you can at least join? I have heard some talk about gaining comfort in support groups.

Another idea I just had is that PC sometimes helps someone who is in need. I don't know very much about it tbh, but you could ask. It would be nice if you could have some way of finding a therapist you can see for a bit so you can get on your feet more.

I don't know what I would have done without my therapist, I was horrible for a while and so lost and I just did not know what to do. There are things I went through that I just could not be alone with.

I think that system is terrible if a person has to be suicidal to get help.

Skywhite, you have us here, don't forget that, I know it's not an "in person" thing, but we are real people that know the challenge.

(((Gentle Caring Hugs)))
OE