You all have put into words my own experience very well...it's like everything is just heavier/muddier - physically, psychologically, emotionally. I also become less social, don't call family/friends nearly as much, cancel plans/call into work or school sick etc., get overwhelmed easily w/ more anxious thoughts.

I think having depression can trick you into thinking that depression is your 'baseline', at least that's my experience.

Lately I'm not even that sad, just exhausted...I miss the manic energy and unbridled sense of wonder and hope At times like this it's hard to even remember feeling like that, as if it was just a mirage or a dream