Well, I made it through most of day 4 on Friday. Checked the mail Friday night and got a letter from the IRS saying my refund is going directly to an old school loan, which means the money that was going to give me some piece of mind is gone. BF took me to dinner and I decided to say screw it...he bought me a pack of smokes. I'm still on the same pack. I smoke a half and don't want anymore. I'll try again after this pack, hopefully I'll be able to make it through all this crap being flung at me.

At least I'm sober....thats about the only thing I'm sure of anymore.