I reach out to you and you don't respond or call. As a person who has the same disorder as me it would help if I could talk to you and vent, not *****, just vent. Cus no one else knows what I'm talking about when I say that I was unresponsive to my mothers tears as she worried that I was gonna harm myself and that my father, the stoic bastard actually showed emotions towards me for one of the first times in my life and I didn't even care.. It's hard not caring when I do care but not mentally and physically not being able to show that I care. Like it paralyzes me to show emotions not out of will but because that's what psychosis/depersonalization whatever you wanna call it does. I don't want a pity party I just want someone to listen to me who gets it. Thanks for not being there for me, but I get it everyone's sick of hearing my ****