Thanks for your reply. Right now I'm just focusing on my goals graduating and pursuing a masters degree. I think mental illness is both a gift and a curse it makes you see the world for what it really is it makes you understand that most friendships are borne out of convenience and are superficial and in general lack depth. It makes you value the few friends that stand by you even more. This is what i have learnt so far dealing with all this. As for my ex well I've done what i can do to reason with her its no more my problem but hers i refuse to feel down for something out of my control.