Hello Everyone,

I am not sure where else I am going to post for support on this issue. But since it is causing depression issues I figured this might be the place. First things first, I have been checked out, I am not seeing things. In short, I am being attacked by two spirits. I had a two person investigator group come in and both of them experienced being touched by the ghosts. And as of recently was able to take picture of a face next to my bed.

So a little back story then I will get into why I am feeling so depressed right now. I have been able to feel spirits around me since I was a child. As of 4 years ago the last of 3 of my best friends died and I moved into the this place. It was all I could afford short notice as the person renting gave me the first month rent free and no secrity deposit or anything.

Everything was fine for the first two month. Soon there I began feeling something moving my bed as if there was someone under my bed with a broom stick pushing up on my mattress on different spots. I started out as just when I was in bed. Over the months any spot I sat began being gentle pushed up and let back down. Not much scares me so I really didn't mind what I thought was a playful ghost.

About a year after it all started the spirit began tugging at my clothing which progressed to tuggin on my pants and finally began getting sexual in nature. First it was fondling and then turned into what I can only describe as rape. I can clearly feel something similar to a penis being inserted and can feel the spirit pushing in and out. It started out once every few days but is now 2-4 times a day.

If that isn't bad enough, it's turned leathal. When I have faught and tried to prevent the rapes I have been attacked in painful ways. Such as feeling something being pushed into my ear to the point of causing severe pain in my ear drum. I have had the two spirits mess with my teeth causing toothache type pain. As of of late I can feel something being pushed in my nose cavity and feel it go down the back of my throat blocking my air way. And also have felt their hand inside my chest grabbing my heart causing it to flutter and cause chest pain. It's QUITE scary.

Today all I wanted to do was cry. It keeps me from sleeping with the touching. And as I said, resisting can be painful or down right life threatening. I don't know if they would mess with my heart to the point of death, but I don't want to find out. I have been searching for help for the last 4 years this has been going on. I made the mistake of mentioning it to a therapist who had me admitted for seeing things. They tried me on several drugs trying to make them go away thinking it was all in my head. In the end, the only reason I was allowed to go home is because I said they ghosts have gone away.

If the ghosts truely were a product of my mind the several anti-psychotics would have made at least SOME difference in activity. And honestly, if the meds did have a effect I would be on them like yesturday. But they meds don't work since the ghosts are not a product of my mind but real. As I said the paranormal group I finally got to come help, both of them experienced being touched as well. But they although they could say there was a ghost here, they couldn't tell me what to do to get rid of them.

I have tried everything. I have tries asking the spirits to leave me alone, demanding to be left alone, salt along door ways, crystals, holy water, crosses, tried doing sage, looked into paying for a medium but they are hundreds of dollars per hour. I tried to have the house blessed but the priest was afraid of having something happen to him so he refused. I am out of idea's.

I would say move, which I am still willing to try if I can find a option. But I doubt it will work. Last year I was in the hospital for a bipolar episode, the hospital was 150 miles south as my county doesn't have a hospital of their own so they rent beds at a hospital in another area. Anyway, I was down at the hospital for 12 days. The spirit was in the car with me on the way down, stayed with me the full 12 days and came back home with me in the car. So the spirit isn't bound to my apartments location, it seems like it's bound to me some how. So I don't even know if moving will have a effect.

All I know is I just want my life back. I want to be able to go to bed and not fear being raped or worry about having my heart stopped for refusing to let the rape happen. I am just so mentally sick from the constant attacks. I just don't know what to do. As I said, I just want to have a huge cry I am so frustrated. Well, let me stop here for now. Thank you all for listening. Don't worry if you don't know what to say, I know I am not writing about a simple problem. I just need a place I can talk about it. I feel so alone with this and just can't handle it alone anymore. It's just too much. Thank you all.

-Stanley