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Originally Posted by tealBumblebee
I would never go to the ER (i work there) and yet, earlier in the week I actually considered that I didn't care anymore. But its not that i'm comfortable with it as much as I have a need (That i've told T) to self sabotage. I know i'm not in danger at this moment because even if I have the impulse, I have enough strength to stop it. But I guess i'm not sure how much longer i'm willing to fight it. I feel like i'm playing games with myself, god and T and just need to figure it out.
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I certainly did not want to go to the ER but I was entirely certain I was going to try and off myself didn't really care how but had various methods/ideas in my head...already did try once and do not think its something family members found 'easy' to deal with.