yeah, I sort of know that.

so you don't think I did anything wrong?
it's bothering me because I just don't get it what makes people walk away from me. maybe body language or something…

it gives me this profound idea of myself not being likable or normal.
on the surface everything seems alright. I feel like I am pretending being normal sometimes. although when I am having a conversation I don't fake or act in any way. mostly I am just enjoying the conversation.

I'd rather like it to be something I do than some bad fate because then I could change it.