I find it difficult to recall what happened to me whilst in the same room as my T. I'm convinced they will be able to "see" what I see by my reactions. I still can't say the words but they are closer to the surface than they have ever been. I remember when I was about 15 sitting and watching a film with my parents in the same room and the film became sexual in nature...I went cold, I was shaking and I was convinced if either of them had so much as glanced in my direction they would have known. I don't watch television anymore. My children love the tv, but I struggle to sit through anything. Mainly because I can't predict what will happen next. I can sit in a room while a tv is on and completely tune it out. Self preservation and all that. I have however felt bombarded lately with news stories. Every time I go onto online news it's filled with stories that set me on edge. I can't join in on conversations at work about them because I fear my reaction to them give me away. I'm glad people can't see my thoughts. I wouldn't wish this on anybody