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Originally Posted by Hellion
I certainly did not want to go to the ER but I was entirely certain I was going to try and off myself didn't really care how but had various methods/ideas in my head...already did try once and do not think its something family members found 'easy' to deal with.
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See, and thats another thing. No one in my family knows i'm struggling. And when I had my first attempt (14 years ago) it was rough. I know that if I were to try now (and especially if I failed) it would absolutely break my family. They'd lose all hope in me and everything I ever try to do. It'd be the ultimate form of self sabotage.