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very so often, I get this pretty much at the same time (like over the course of 2 or 3 days):
severe agitation, irritation, and dysphoria
inability to concentrate and focus
crying spells and despair along with suicidal thoughts
mild to moderate paranoia while not fully breaking from reality
mild to moderate visual hallucinations while not fully breaking from reality
mild to moderate delusions while not fully breaking from reality (the movement of the blinds start to 'have meaning")
sexual hypomania
flashbacks and emotional memories of trauma
severe, psychotic-like panic attacks
dissociation--'blank' mind, numbing, hours goes by, sitting and staring w/o blinking
depersonalization and derealization
voices (my own) that say I hate you, kill you, etc.
psychotic-like dissociative experiences that feel like I am possessed (with no complete break from reality) that my therapist and I refer to as an introject
constant memory problems
eyes shimmer/jerking
*adding-I've had racing thoughts too, just not most recent episode
...feeling totally messed up and hopeless.
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I have same stuff + 'own voice' in my head which often adds 'shatan' on the end of my own thoughts, or got thoughts like 'sell soul to shatan' etc.... sometimes I feel like my consciousness is turned off but I talk with people, doing stuff, can tell how I feel, like half of my mind would be working, half not... and sometimes I don't want to eat nothing, talk with no one don't know why..
is there a possibility that I may be wrong diagnosed and be schozoaffective instead of having GAD with agoraphobia?...