Hello Open Eyes: I feel your pain... it seems as though every day, all day long, my head is filled with all of the things that have hurt me. But, in my case, the other thing my head is filled with is all of the things I have done that have hurt others, & how useless & valueless I feel. Sometimes it begins to feel as though there's so much of this stuff in my head, there's no room for anything else.
I used to try to stuff these thoughts & feelings back down or ignore them. It never worked for me. At this point, I'm trying to learn to accept these personal demons with compassion, as my signature quote below states. I wish you all the best with your struggles...