Hello Syd, welcome to Psych Central.

No need for apologies, that's what this place is for, self-help and support.

If you have been prone to dissociation in the past, then it is likely as it is a coping mechanism that will pop up in times of stress. It is a very welcome coping strategy in childhood but not so good as an adult. The mind goes elsewhere in times of great stress. More on this here >>> The Psyche?s Way Out of Pain: Dissociation | World of Psychology It would be good for you to share your concerns with your own doctor.