I think I need to calm down, sleep and come back to this tomorrow with a fresh head. I feel so confused about who I am and what is real...I mean, I read it and it makes sense partly, but what I can't comprehend is the possibility of not actually loving my husband and him living with this monster...I can't emphasise how I would not be able to live with myself if I believed what this man wrote....and the worrying thing is, the paper has nearly convinced me that my own delusions will make me believe he is wrong in what he said to protect myself from the truth of the real monster I am...

Would you mind if I sent you the link and tell me what you think after reading it?