This is my first post here. I was not sure which of the forums I should post in. I was first hospitalized for depression at 13, and am 54 now. I also have CPTSD. My Mom died in January. I inherited all the contents of her house as a portion of my inheritance. My sister does not like antiques or any of the things Mom collected. Since then, in my little 2 bedroom house, there are boxes and totes containing over 1500 cookbooks in my living room. In my second bedroom, there are again boxes and totes of all manner of antiques. I have no idea how to sell any of it, as I need to make as much as possible. Money for me goes into a Special Needs Trust, and it needs to last. So, I have done nothing with it. I am overwhelmed. I rarely leave my house at all. I am still afraid of knocks at my door, calls from unknown numbers, etc. Counseling here does not work, as it is a free clinic and they were not helpful at all. They have read books, but have not lived the problems they are attempting to solve. I am on 200 mgs Zoloft daily and 5 mgs Klonopin PRN. I am also becoming a crazy cat lady. I have strays I feed in my back yard, but now they keep trying to get into my house. I can't deal with it now. I have money now from my Mom that I can't use for other than specific things, which is fine. My income is from SSDI and is less than 1K per month. I can't even afford bubble wrap and postage to sell things on eBay or other antique sites. I am completely overwhelmed. Only my sister lives near me, and she just lost her husband. I need help, but don't know what to do. They tried to put me on a suicide hold one night when I was having a hypoglycemic episode. I talk a lot, but don't realize what I am saying. My speech is garbled then, often unintelligible. Sorry to run on so much. I can't cope.