I have been having a problem the last two weeks. It has nothing to do with forgetting for me. I think about it and don't want to bother. Some kind of mental block going on. It is strange because I have always been med compliant. Twenty years I have been taking them and it is usually the first thing I do. Once in awhile though I will go through this where I just don't want to bother taking them. Right now it is probably because I have been doing very well for nine months but have slowly falling into a deep depression. I can't consciously pin point anything but maybe I think why bother, whats the point, nothing will help, and all of that......losing hope again. I force myself to take them because I have not made a decision to go off meds and I know it will mess me up worse if I don't take them. If I were to decide to stop I would do so with my pdoc and to a slow taper. This is just some mental block.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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