Commitment. A belief that vows matter. Seeing how good things can be if she is in the right mindset and has her health issues under control. Hope, but that is fading. Compassion to not let her go through this alone. I dont want to split up custody of the kids, because I dont ever want them in our home with only mom during a low period or when she is sick physically and needs help. A sense of attonement and justice because I wronged her, but Im getting tired of hating myself. And finances.