Yes, I know exactly what you mean ((Skeezyks)), I have a lot of those days myself.
However, you need to get to the point where you can become more forgiving of yourself, because, just about everyone looks back with regrets. The truth is though, we grow up all our lives, and that is because we all learn by experiencing and doing and often most have so little help in that challenge.

You also had your own unique challenges, who was there to really help you the way you needed it? I am sure that you have realized now from wandering around this site that so many people often don't get the help they needed and need to do better and not make mistakes.

It is so important that when looking back you remember that whatever you went through at whatever time it was, you did not have the outcome to anything. Now that you see that in whatever way it went, you have an enormous advantage that you never had way back when. There are so many things I wish I had done differently, but at the time I did not know what I know now, I just didn't Skeezyks, so am I supposed to hate myself?

Well, a lot of human beings made some huge mistakes in our history, I am just human myself and that means I was destined to make mistakes too.

((Hugs))
OE