4 years is a long time to be looking for a job only to be more discouraged by not getting the job you so desperatly long for. It is disgusting that at 58 you are too old, with the wealth of knowledge and experience I though that you would be a front runner for any job that you hand your hand too. I am so sorry that things have not worked out, and I don't have any words of wisdom only to say that "life sucks" but what can you do. You have to keep going...... you have too...

Best wishes