I am feeling more hopeless than usual. I can still turn it on for the world but more and more of my home time is spent out of faze. If I have a concrete thing to do it gets done but days where there is nothing on the calender are blanks.

My creativity has fled, I cannot initiate ( I have tried to start this thread for days), I cannot string thoughts together, I have no motivation, no desires. But put me in a room and I am on, it is not even a choice. I drive there on auto, I get there and the smile slides in to place and I am funny, vivacious, and the kind of person that has friends.

And the minute I get back in the car it is all gone.

I am starting to get whiplash. I think it is a medication issue. I noticed this change a little after my doctor put me on Topamax for migraines along with a total loss of appetite but I feel like I am getting lost. I don't trust my judgment much these days so... Help?