wow. I actually see very differentiated range of emotions and thoughts in what you write. so I can't quite confirm your assumption that you are only capable of the two most basic emotions.

also I can recognize a typical depressive line of argument here. it is perfidious with intelligent people because there is always a way to justify in very logical ideas why you are inferior or guilty or whatever feelings you have about yourself. but they come from a depressive mood and have nothing to do with objective reality.

I remember having this monster idea before (that should be gone/ kept from others for the sake of humanity…)

-it's not true. maybe you will agree that all human beings deserve the same chance to be happy.

also I have kind of a private opinion about these personality tests. do you know how these tests are being made? -I wouldn't let myself get labelled by something so stupid, imho.
usually I would listen to mh professionals. but I really resent and reject these tests and even more the ideas they take as a basis!