(( erinbear ))

I'm not clear as to why you're terminating with the current T but I wonder if you worked on this issue regarding your former T with him? Sudden abandonment by your T is huge. You need to talk about that and about why you considered going to him again after he did that to you.

What happened with your former T sounds like what's happening now with your current T. Does it feel that way to you a bit?

Are you really wanting to terminate with your current T? Or are you agreeing to a suggestion by him?

I hope you'll talk to him about all this and have at least a few more sessions with him, or with someone else. The reaction you had to hearing the former T's voice says you haven't worked through his abandonment/abusiveness.

No, you didn't 'need' to have this happen, but that's just what life does, darn it... dumps it right in your lap. Lucky for us, once it's there.. we can start to deal with it.