Thank you Rose. Why am I not surprised that my state is not participating? It is pretty near last on the list for mental health care, education and whatever is important. Of course we have one of the most famous college football teams in the nation. Sports...lots of money goes into that. Seems that whatever the good ol boys want to put money into is what gets funding.

I was told I do not qualify for medicaid or any other assistance because I make too much money! Ha ha. But I am living at poverty level. Was also told that NO applications are even being taken for section 8 housing anymore. It is on hold or some bs. The apartments that I could get with the housing authority are totally ghetto. I pay about 340 a month more than what I should be paying a month for rent. I do rent from an individual, I have done that a lot. It is a townhouse, however he told me that he has to sell it when my lease is up or raise my rent by about 250 dollars a month. It could be a situation where after my lease is up that I could stay longer until something better comes along for me. I think legally he cannot just put me out because he has money issues. That could get ugly however. Don't think I could go through that drama!

I worked my butt off to become a RN. Klonopin took it away. Now I am poor and miserable. Have nothing absolutely to look forward to and I think my will to keep plugging in is fading fast. I am sad and broken hearted every day. No one can or would help me. I don't even know why I bother to get out bed anymore. I feel let down and abandoned by everyone. This is too much now.