yeah, okay, now I get it.

you know what is funny - I consider the experience of depression as something enriching to my life despite all the lack that it actually is.

still I think I have not understood so complicated feelings before. and I think I have become more insightful. for example I am surprised by how many pieces of art and literature make so much more sense to me now.
so eventually it is broadening the range of feelings that I can understand.
even if it is taking so much away at the moment it is happening. just saying, … kind of ironic.